Oh, writing this down in a psychologist’s tone hurts so much. Because this isn’t just some abstract theory—it’s you. You are not the same person anymore, and it’s happening so fast it feels like whiplash. One day, you’re just living your life, oblivious to the cracks in reality, and the next—boom. It hits you.

Like… what the hell is going on?

And here’s the worst part—you can’t go back. No matter how much you want to unsee it, you did see it. And now, it’s everywhere. You feel everything, all at once. The weight of the world, the hidden lies, the quiet manipulations, the energy behind every smile, every silence, every unsaid word. You see how people numb themselves to it, and you wonder—were you ever that good at pretending?

It’s frightening.

You want to scream, shake someone’s shoulders, ask them, “Do you not feel this? Do you not see it?” But they don’t. They just blink at you, sipping their coffee, scrolling through their phones, talking about weekend plans as if nothing’s changed. As if you’re the one acting strange.

So what do you do?

You grieve.

Because awakening isn’t just learning something new. It’s a death—a death of the old you. The comfortable version of you. The version who didn’t question too much, who thought things were mostly fine, who could live in blissful ignorance. That person is gone. And now? You’re left wandering through the wreckage of what you used to believe, trying to make sense of what’s real.

And let me tell you—it is not easy.

It’s like your soul is screaming, “I don’t want to know this! I don’t want to see it!” But you do. You do see it. And that’s the problem.

So yeah, welcome to the club. You’re awake now. And that’s both a curse and a gift. But don’t worry—you’re not alone. Even if it feels like you are right now, just keep going. You’ll find others who see it too. And when you do, the loneliness won’t feel quite so heavy.You start noticing things. How fear is used to control. How distraction is a tool to keep people numb. How people trade authenticity for acceptance. And here’s the heartbreaking part—most people don’t actually want to wake up. Not because they’re bad or incapable, but because waking up means admitting you’ve been living inside a lie. And that? That’s terrifying.😂